Season of Motherhood
The thing that I don’t have is the reliability of guaranteed time. Right now I am deep in the season of motherhood with my youngest as I write this being 8 months. And I will be quite honest, some days I want to throw it all in, be a complete mum at home with no business concerns and take the kids out of school and travel. Other days I want to challenge myself to make the balance work – it has to, because as I said before we are not made for burn out and that is exactly what unbalance leads to. I am learning that I have to respect my seasons, and right now my attention is and has to be largely focused on my family, there are a lot of needs on a daily basis that need to met, without question. Feeding, washing, clothing, playing, talking, helping to get to sleep, reading to on repeat all day long.
So right now I’m trying to figure it out as I go. Currently I’m learning how to podcast from a supermarket cafe, because I need to get tea for this evening but I also need to have it prepped for before I pick Ez and Otto up from camp and nursery – and Nella needs playtime too. So as much as I actually did want to just stay at home and potter, I walked her to the shop so that her nap time was on my time and not her playtime. This is where we just need to start supporting each other as mums in business and mums in general and not bringing each other down. We judge ourselves enough without having someone else’s load added to it as well. The way I might decide to parent and work wont match some one else’s and theirs wont resonate with me. But, we can still respect it and help each other raise.
Here is what I want – and I’m glad that I’m saying it somewhere visible.I want a lifestyle not a career. I want to be able to generate ideas at the Kitchen table and bring them to fruition. I want to be able to pick and choose when and where I work and how much. I want to be paid well. I want a reliable monthly income, but the opportunity to scale it too. I want to plan and dream exciting things in life and being able to pay for them comfortably.I don’t want to live out of my tax account. I was pots for different parts of life. I want organic food on the table. I want more than 2 weeks holiday a year. I want to spend a whole day prepping food if I so wish. I don’t want to compromise my time with the children.
That felt good to get all that out. When I come back to this in the future I’m going to smile knowing that Ive achieved what I’ve set out to do or at the change of direction Ive taken. Want to join in the conversation more? Head over to the gram where we touch on the daily parts of running a business. Or get involved in the weekly letters. x
